for the third time

for the third time ..
i have to let you go ..
and for the third time ..
my heart is so pain just because of you ..
i have no idea what happen to me ..
no idea for what have you done ..
maybe i make the mistaken ..
but for all i have done ..
it's not what you have to do ..
for the third time i lost my spirit ..
and i have to accept that i lost it and i will never have it back ..
starting from now on ..
you are lost in you hypocrisy of world ..
that i told you ..
that you have to stand alone one day ...
because the world that you in ..
it not for ever and you know to ..
but ..
you are just a stupid kid that never want to hear what people says ..
just someone that are so hard-headed ..
that are to big for me to guide you ..
you say the word of "goodbye" again ..
 but i have hear it again n again ..
i know i am not in a rich family like friend you out their ..
but i have my dignity that no want can drop it like you ..
to stand by you side is so impossible now ..
i can't do anything to help you although i hear people out their want to drop you down ..
impossible ..
impossible ..
i hope you now i want you to be safe ..
i don't want you to be hurt ..
because if you hurt it's like my soul are being killed ..
take good care of you self ..
i can't see you anymore ..
and no more change for me to be FRIEND with you anymore of it ..
just like i killed my self in front of you ..
if one day i see you face again ..




p/s:goodbye peng ..

wish me luck

for all my firend ..
i'm not a perfect person for u guys ..
i am not a great person for all of you ..
but in my life ..
i have to be ..
i have to make my mind up ..
i just only have you guys and my family to life ..
for me i well died if just alone ..
i always dream a scary thing that not make sense..
lost all my friend and family ..
alone until the light is fuzzy ..
the shadow is lost ..
and my mind is died ..
every day i cry and hope one day the sunshine will come over ..
give me air to breathe..
the raid that will accompany me until i died..
for all the sea that give me a water to survival in my journey that never end ..
please be by my side and wake me up ..
wake me up in the world of hell ..
don push me in side of it ..
coz it just kill me slowly ..
and died in a situation of crying ..
wish me luck my friend ..
always in a right way ..
that make me successful one day ..
with all of you ..
wish me luck ..

p/s: i just test my skills ..don't worry .. :P

Assalamualaikum W.B.T :]

Andai di dalam hati mu ada TAMAN.
Semailah ia dengan benih-benih KEIMANAN.
Bajai ia dengan amal maaruf yang BERKEKALAN.
Siramilah ia dengan istiqomah yang BERTERUSAN.
Supaya bercambah mekar bunga-bunga KETAQWAAN.
Lindungilah ia daripada parasit nafsu yang MENYESATKAN.
Lalu disuburkan lagi dengan perisai tawaqal dan KESABARAN.
Sehingga tegap merimbun berbekal haruman penuh KEREDHAAN.
Melalui cahaya cinta Illahi dan rahmat kasih sayang-Nya AR-RAHMAN.

silent!

erm hari ni aq sakit aty sgt ...
tp bukan ari ni sebenanye ..
enth la ..
kite xkn mmpu buatkn aty semue owg ..
tp dalam tok puaskan aty semue owg ..
sape nk puaskan aty kite ..
jemu kadang2 aq an hidup ni tp ini semue lumrah hidup ..
aq cube redho tp sampai bile ..
sampai gunung berapi da meletup bawu nk paham!
sebb 2 aq x paham langgung an kerenah manusia ni ..
smpai aq malas nk amik twu ..
tp aty kite ni selembut kerak nasi yg kene rendam ..
sabar2 n last sekali jadi SILENT!
babi ..!
aq benci ..
tp aq SILENT!
benci aq benci ..
tp aq SILENT!
sampai bile??
mungkin sampai aq MAMPUS!
aq BENCI!!!

harapan aq walaupun ...

yup harapan aq ..
aq takut tok berazam tp bagi aq cukup la harapan yg ade dlm aty ni ..
ofcoz la semue owg nk berjaya ..
tiap tahun xlagi tiap ari semue berharap tok berjaya n some with me to..
harapan aq tok berjaya insyaallah sampai bila2 ..
tp sejujurnye 2 bukn la harapan yg aq maksudkn ..
setiap manusia boleh berjaya ..
tp bergantung dgn cara dan pembawakan diri masing2 ..
aq jugk macam 2 ..
harapan bukn la sesuatu yg diharapkan tp xbuat ape2 ..
baik xyg berharap klau xmmpu nk berusahakn ..
so aq keep going ..
penghalang bagi sebuah harapan 2 adalah apa bila kite gagal mengawal emosi and minda kita ..
disebabkn 2 kita akan mmpu gagal sekelip mata ..
harapan ..
bukn jadi masalah bile kite berharap tp masalahnye bile kite terlalu berharap ..
kite xkn mmpu nerawat aty kecewa ..
sesungguhnye biarlah harapan 2 beserta dengan tawakal n doa..
ermm..
harapan aq??
aq pon sebenanye bnyk yg aq da harapkan ..
tp kebanyakanye hampa n kecewa ..
semue tentang kehidupan ni xkn pernah ada yg adil melainkn Tuhan yg satu ..
setiap kekecewakan akn ade hikmah dan sebabnya ..
disebbkn itu aq redho ..
tawakal dan berdoa..
walaupun hakikatnye harapan aq masih menggunung seperti dulu tp kite aq ade pendorong tok menenangkan aty aq ..
xlagi aq sesakit dulu ..
xlagi aq sesesak dulu ..
san insyaalah hati aq bakal tenang selalu ..
walau hakikatnye kite xkn mmpu tahan bile segalanye menyakitkn dan hanya ditemani oleh air mata ..
and harapan aq????




biarlah aq dan Tuhan yg tahu .. ;)